Aren’t I Worth Anything?


In me there dwelleth no good thing.

There is none righteous, no not one.

Nothing to the altar can I bring.

No salvation can be won.


All have sinned, no glory of God.

My righteousness is as filthy rags.

All my things with dung are shod.

Guilt within ever nags.


Can’t I do anything worthy of praise?

Is my good not good enough?

I should give up; nothing pays.

I’ll never be able to come up to snuff.


So goes the human and fleshly mindset:

We think of ourselves and want to matter.

Let us consider the Divine aspect

God’s ways are higher; we must our ways shatter.


I have loved you with an everlasting love,

I shield you with my strong right arm.

Look not below or within; look above

I will in no wise allow you harm.


With tenderness and mercy God has arrayed

With care each detail of His magnificent creation.

You are fearfully and wonderfully made

To manifest God’s amazing celebration.


It’s YOU! He celebrates each detail of you.

He loves to work through each facet of your

Unique personality, whatever you bring to

This life and those God brings to your door.


God has designed each child with delight.

He created us to need Him, He wants us near.

We can be whole only as we are right

And dependent on Him for all we hold dear.

Recipe Friday: Bone Broth and Butternut Squash Soup

Because Amy brought up the idea (and because she’s brilliant), and because it was seconded and thirded, I begin this day with Recipe Friday. I will try to post at least one new recipe per week.

I start with a two-fer, because the recipe is for Butternut Squash Soup, but one of its ingredients is bone broth.

A word (or two or many) about bone broth: If you are looking to improve your health, this is the number one most important venue to investigate and implement. Remember when great-grandma used to save those bones and simmer them for hours or days? Ever see those old-time movies, when someone was sick, and they brought calves foot jelly? There was something nutritious and healing in them-thar bones. I invite you to do some research on bone broth. There are many, many recipes to browse.

More words on bone broth: You can buy bone broth. Make sure it’s realio-trulio BONE broth, not the flavored broth that sells so quickly for flavor. I have found a true (I’m pretty sure) bone broth at Walmart: it’s organic (which I highly recommend) and I get the low-sodium (if I need salt, I prefer to add my own pink Himalayan salt); but the drawback is, they add sugar (ech!) and other stuff. Auuugh! Why, oh why??? Anyway, that one is my fall-back when I don’t have any left that I made myself, because it’s very reasonably priced. Walmart carries organic chicken bone broth and beef bone broth.

Every morning I heat a small pot of bone broth (2 servings) for us to drink after our morning coffee. I supplement: half bone broth, half filtered water, five shakes of pink Himalayan salt, and two scoops powdered collagen (I buy the Dr. Axe unflavored – pricey, but worth our health). It’s very soothing to sip, and excellent for gut health.

To make bone broth:

  • Bones (with or without attached meat) You can use beef, chicken, or fish. You can use hooves, feet, or beaks. When I make mine, I usually use the bones from a chicken I roasted for dinner.
  • Veggies (when I cut carrots, onions, and celery for other recipes, I save the cut ends in the freezer)
  • Filtered water
  • 2 tablespoons raw apple cider vinegar
  • 1-2 tablespoons salt (use the good stuff)


  • Pressure cooker or slow cooker (a big pot on the stove doesn’t work well for this, since it cooks overnight)
  • A stainless steel colander basket insert is handy. Put it in the pot prior to adding any ingredients. The ingredients all go into the colander; then, when finished cooking, lift the colander out and drain the broth back into the pot.


  1. (Extra note: Some people like to roast beef bones first, in the oven, to give the broth extra flavor. This is optional)
  2. Put the colander (if using) into the pot, and put the bones and veggies into it. Sprinkle a tablespoon or so of salt on.
  3. Add filtered water and vinegar. I use a pitcher to fill my pot. I add the vinegar to the pitcher; that way I don’t feel I have to stir the bones & veggies & water, and make a mess.
  4. If using a slow cooker, set it on low and cook for 24-36 hours. I have not had to add more water when I do this, but it’s a good idea to check your pot once in a while, to make sure it has enough water.
  5. If using a pressure cooker, cook for 5 hours:
    1. I use an Instant Pot. I can set on Soup for up to 4 hours. I do that, then, after it gets down to less than 3 hours, I add an extra hour.
    2. If you have a stove-top pressure cooker, keep a heat just enough to keep pressure for 5 hours.
  6. At the end of cooking, drain the veggies and bones out. I like to put a small cooling rack over my pot, then rest the colander on top of it, draining into the pot. If you don’t have a colander, use a slotted spoon to take out the bones and veggies.
  7. Let the broth cool.
  8. I like to add unflavored beef gelatin (organic) while the broth is still warm. It adds some nutritional oomph. When I make bone broth, it yields about ¾ of a gallon. I add maybe ½ cup of gelatin. I whisk it in, and whisk quite a few times as it cools, to make sure it’s all incorporated.
  9. Pour into canning jars. I use half-gallon size, and I get about one and a half jars full.
  10. Store in the refrigerator.

Butternut Squash Soup in the Pressure Cooker


Notes: I use the Instant Pot for this. Also, I like nutmeg a lot, so I add even more than the recipe calls for. I am sensitive to dairy, so I use rice milk. But butter – oh, yes, butter! And, this could be made in a pot on the stove, but it would take longer. I’m guessing 20 – 40 minutes to cook the cubed squash, depending on how small it’s chopped, and how big a pot you use.

This serves 5-8 people, depending on if it’s a main or side dish. Figure 45 minutes or so from start to finish.

  • 1 medium butternut squash
  • 1 medium onion
  • 1 tablespoon olive oil
  • 1 tablespoon salt
  • 1 teaspoon cinnamon
  • ½ teaspoon powdered or grated fresh ginger
  • ½ teaspoon nutmeg
  • ¼ teaspoon cloves
  • 3 cups bone broth
  • 4 tablespoons butter
  • 2 cups milk, cream, or half-and-half (I use rice milk)
  • 4 small-medium potatoes, peeled, cubed and boiled (rice, quinoa, or lentils would also go well; this would be a good way to use up left-overs of any of these)
  • chicken, cooked and shredded (optional)


  • Peel the squash, remove the seeds, and cut into cubes (1” or so).
  • Chop the onion.
  • In the pressure cooker (or Instant Pot insert), add the olive oil. Use the sauté mode or cook over medium heat. When it’s hot, add the squash, onion, and salt.
  • Cook and stir until slightly roasted (10 minutes).
  • Add the spices; cook and stir five more minutes.
  • Add the bone broth.
  • Fit the lid on, bring up to pressure and cook (at pressure) for 10 minutes.
  • (If you are using potatoes: while the squash sautés, comes to pressure, cooks, and de-pressurizes, peel, cube, and cook the potatoes; they should cook in 10 – 15 minutes.)
  • Do a quick-release of the pressure.
  • When all the pressure is released, take off the lid. Use an immersion blender to blend up the soup.
  • Stir in the butter, then the milk.
  • Add the potatoes and the (optional) chicken. Add more bone broth or milk, if needed.
  • Turn on the heat again, or use the sauté mode. Stir over heat until it’s hot.

Serve hot. Some good biscuits or a grilled cheese go well with this.

A Sad Place to Visit, and I Wouldn’t Want to Live There


A wayward life, a ghastly past,

Sin in my heart, a life-long mask.

Stealing, lying, raping and killing,

All mournful deeds, wrenching and chilling.


Loss of a child, ripped from a heart,

Broken marriage, torn apart.

Abuse of a child, or partner or friend,

Fractured hearts, impossible to mend.


Now comes the Savior, He for to heal

Miracles flow, hearts to seal

With His blood cleansing, claiming His own

Gathering His children, bringing them home.


Caring and soothing, shaping and mending,

New place to live, no more pretending

To live in fear or doubt or unease;

Basking in joy and love and peace.


But what of those memories, those dark inner thoughts,

That keep intruding and cause such knots

Of turmoil and sadness and regrets of things past –

What to do with those burdens held fast?


Lay aside every weight, and the sin which ensnares,

Casting all care upon Him; because for you He cares.

Turn your mourning into dancing, praise Him always,

Obey Him unto the end of your days.


And of those dark recesses, those past mournful times,

Visit them sometimes, and use the eyes

That God has given, for you to perceive

That all things work for Him, to those who believe.


Use God’s perspective to view these past wrongs;

Turn your mournings into new songs.

There is now therefore no condemnation

Dance with His saints in communal celebration.

To the Actor in You


Have you ever acted in a part? A play? Church skit? I used to participate regularly in theatrical productions, and I very much enjoyed acting. It let me express sides of people that I wouldn’t have the nerve or courage to otherwise express. I got to slip out of who I was for a time, and be someone else. I could play another person with full abandon because I wasn’t responsible for that person: I was under the authority of the director. I could shed my entire personality and clothe myself with another persona.

As I was reading in Romans 7 this morning, a little something clicked.

What if being a Christian is just a little akin to acting a role? There are too many finer points for there to be any firm parallels, mind you, but the thought of it made it a little easier for me to visualize living for Christ.

When we become a Christian, we die to self, and are re-born in Jesus. We become a new creature. [2 Corinthians 5.17 Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.] We have a new role, because we are a new person. If we follow the actor analogy, we slip on a new character (although, in reality, the new character is not a role, but who we actually ARE). Romans 7 is about wrestling with the flesh: knowing that it’s not really YOU any more, but knowing also that you follow that old flesh sometimes, anyway.

Sometimes it’s easier to play a role when you acknowledge it’s not really you. Take on the role of Jesus. Immerse yourself in His character.


  • You get a script to follow (the Bible, if you will).
  • The Character you assume is well-developed and well-researched. You have a whole book to read about Him.
  • When you are “in character,” you might say or do things that are not in your (fleshly) character. But you can be more comfortable in staying in character because you are under the authority of the Director. There is no need to insert any of “you” into the role you play. However, the Character is revealed through you, personally.
  • When you step out of character, you are not following the Director, and are failing to follow the script. You might ruin the plot. As in Romans 7, sometimes you may slip and fall back into your own character. All it takes is a look back at the Script.
  • If you extemporize on the dialog, you may change the meaning of the delivery, and indeed, the whole plot. Again, another reading of the Script will bring clarity.
  • When you play the Character correctly, you are putting off all nuances and definitions of who you are in your flesh. You put on the whole Character of Christ.
  • The more you play the Character, the more you become like Him.
  • A strong actor will carry the other actors in a performance; will indeed change the tenor of the whole production.

Romans 13.14 But put ye on the Lord Jesus Christ, and make not provision for the flesh, to fulfil the lusts thereof.


*image from google images

Forgive Yourself? Rethinking It


I sometimes hear or read of the notion of forgiving yourself: “You need to forgive yourself.” “I need to forgive myself.” And it rattles me – shakes my core, unsettles my spirit. I kept wondering why it bothered me so. I searched Scripture, and found my answer.

The words, the concept, the idea of forgiving yourself is not in Scripture. It is nowhere mentioned in God’s Word that we should or need to forgive ourselves.

God’s Word is our guide. If it’s not in there, there’s good reason. In Revelation 22.18, 19, John admonishes us not to add to or take away from God’s Word.

God’s Word carries power; human words do not.

God’s Way works, ours does not. He will not give resources to do that which is not His will. If God does not tell us to do something, He will not provide the strength, the time, the peace, the joy, the comfort, the venue, or the closure to do it.

Forgiving yourself – where does this come from? Do people mean to forgive themselves as they forgive others? Again, God did not direct us to do this. Forgiving others is crucial: we do not forgive their sin (only God can do that), we simply acknowledge that their sin (against us or against someone else) is between them and God, and God will handle consequences. We are to give that over to God and recognize that we are in the same boat as the sinner; but it is not our sin, and doesn’t belong to us.

Maybe it’s just verbiage. Maybe folks, when they talk about forgiving oneself, really mean accepting God’s forgiveness. Maybe I’m being a stickler about what God says: I want to be clear to myself and others, and speak only what God says. If I am to speak to others about God and His ways, I want to be sure to use His Words.

Forgiving yourself: it concerns me that there’s a subtle connotation that forgiveness from God isn’t enough – that we need to complete it somehow. It scares me to think that people might believe that they need to do anything else than what God has done for them; that we need to improve what God said;  that there’s a way they can talk themselves into being okay.

We’re not okay. We are all sinners. We do awful things. Really awful.

Do not expect that you can live a clean life – you can’t. You will sin

  • Psalms 14.3 They are all gone aside, they are alltogether become filthy: there is none that doeth good, no, not one.
  • Romans 3.23 For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God.
  • 1 John 1.8 If we say we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us.

We need to take each sin before God and confess and repent. Then God forgives. (1John 1.9 If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.)

Look up those great men who have sinned and bowed themselves before God, and received pardon – none have any mention of “forgiving themselves.”

  • Moses – murder, disobedience to God’s command
  • Aaron – building the golden calf
  • David – adultery, murder, disobedience to God’s command
  • Peter – denied Jesus
  • Paul (who was good at debasing himself, but only telling it like it is: Phil 3.13, 14; 2Cor 12.2-4; Eph 3.8) – stood by at the murder of Stephen, rounded up Christians for persecution
  • Isaiah 6.5 Then I said: “Woe is me, for I am ruined, because I am a man of unclean lips dwelling among a people of unclean lips; for my eyes have seen the King, the LORD of Hosts.”

All received forgiveness from God, and exulted in His peace.

Before God, they all recognized their human, fleshly sinfulness, as they ought to have done. It’s who we are, and it is right for us to acknowledge our faults.

The whole idea of forgiveness (God forgiving you) is finding peace with God.

Important note: Jesus is our peace. Finding peace with God can only be done through Jesus Christ. Have you claimed Jesus as your Savior?

What sin?

So I gossiped. Does that make me a bad person? Yes. Yes, it does.

James 2.10  For whosoever shall keep the whole law, and yet offend in one point, he is guilty of all

Murder? Matthew 5.21, 22 Ye have heard that it was said by them of old time, Thou shalt not kill; and whosoever shall kill shall be in danger of the judgment: But I say unto you, That whosoever is angry with his brother without a cause shall be in danger of the judgment: and whosoever shall say to his brother, Raca, shall be in danger of the council: but whosoever shall say, Thou fool, shall be in danger of hell fire.

Adultery? Matthew 5.28 But I say unto you, That whosoever looketh on a woman to lust after her hath committed adultery with her already in his heart.

Stealing? – a pencil, money, someone’s reputation or moment or joy or virtue?

Maybe you try to excuse your sin. Or maybe you think it was so bad you can never be forgiven. “Oh, but what I did was awful. It was worse than anyone ever did. I’m a horrible person.” First, yes, you’re a horrible person. I’m a horrible person. Everyone is. You are no different than others. Romans 7.18 For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh,) dwelleth no good thing: for to will is present with me; but how to perform that which is good I find not. No good thing in my flesh refers to all people.

Sin is not something that we compare to other people. None of us can say that we did anything worse than anyone else. That’s human thinking. God is our plumb line, and it is against His law, His morality, His purity, His holiness, that we sin.

You have sinned. Anyone who is reading this: you have sinned.

Romans 3.10 As it is written, There is none righteous, no, not one.

It was your sin that put Jesus up on the cross, it was for you He died.

Think you can’t get over your sin? You’re not supposed to. You can’t handle this by yourself. Only God can forgive sin (In Mark 2.7, The Pharisees knew that only God can forgive sin: “Who can forgive sins but God alone?” Jesus replied (v 10), But so that you may know that the Son of Man has authority on earth to forgive sins...”)

Receive the gifts God offers so abundantly. He offers forgiveness, and you can live a joyous, loving life through the power of His Holy Spirit.

Steps to being cleansed from all unrighteousness, and to living in joyous freedom:

  1. Own your sin
    1. Confess that you sinned.
    2. Specifically name your sin (I stole ____. I murdered ____. I fell in love with a married man, and we had an affair. I gossiped about someone, and ruined a reputation.)
    3. If you can, name the root of your sin. (I was greedy. I was selfish. I wanted power. I was prideful. I was jealous. I was playing God.)
    4. Own that you are responsible for your sin. No one else controls your thoughts, your actions, your emotions, your speech, your will. You always have a choice. You chose sin. Take responsibility.
    5. It will help if you can find a Bible verse that specifies your sin. The Ten Commandments, found in Exodus Chapter 20 and Deuteronomy Chapter 5, are a good place to start.
  2. Confess that you are unrighteous before a righteous God.
    1. Humble yourself.
    2. Acknowledge that you can do nothing to cover up or erase or justify your sin. You stand naked before an all-seeing God. (Hebrews 4.13 And there is no creature hidden from His sight, but all things are naked and open to the eyes of Him to whom we must give)
    3. Acknowledge that your sin is deserving of death. Acknowledge that your sin, indeed, is already killing you.
    4. Acknowledge your need for God Almighty. Bow before Him.
      1. It often helps to place yourself in a position of subservience (physically bow, kneel, or prostrate yourself on the ground), evidence to yourself that you are humbling your heart and baring your soul to God. (Revelation 1.17 When I saw Him, I fell at His feet like a dead man. But He placed His right hand on me and said, “Do not be afraid. I am the First and the Last)
  3. Cry to God for mercy through the blood of His Son, Jesus Christ.
    1. Claim God’s promise: He sent His Son to be the propitiation for our sins. Yes, for YOUR sins. You are no different, no exception to anyone else.
    2. Acknowledge that you are eligible for redemption.
      1. 1 John 4.14 And we have seen and do testify that the Father sent the Son to be the Saviour of the world.
      2. John 3.16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
      3. Romans 3.25 Whom God hath set forth to be a propitiation through faith in his blood, to declare his righteousness for the remission of sins that are past, through the forbearance of God;
      4. 1 John 2.2 And he is the propitiation for our sins: and not for ours only, but also for the sins of the whole world.
      5. 1 John 4.10 Herein is love, not that we loved God, but that he loved us, and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins.
      6. Psalms 130. 3, 4 If You, O LORD, kept track of iniquities, then who, O Lord, could stand? But with You there is forgiveness, so that You may be feared.
      7. Romans 3.22 Even the righteousness of God which is by faith of Jesus Christ unto all and upon all them that believe: for there is no difference
  1. Receive God’s forgiveness
    1. Do not fall into unbelief: do not think that it can’t be true, that you are an exception. Really, truly, this is God’s unadulterated, pure promise to you. You are allowed, encouraged, to receive this gift.
      1. Isaiah 44.22 I have blotted out your transgressions like a cloud, and your sins like a mist. Return to Me, for I have redeemed you.
      2. Zephaniah 3.17 The LORD your God is among you; He is mighty to save. He will rejoice over you with gladness; He will quiet you with His love; He will rejoice over you with singing.
    2. Base your condition of forgiveness on God’s Word, not on your feelings.
      1. This is a big one: DO NOT BASE YOUR FORGIVENESS ON HOW YOU FEEL. Base your forgiveness on the truth of God’s Word. If your feelings tell you that you are not forgiven, then your feelings are lies that you must rebuke.
        1. Jeremiah 17.9 The heart is deceitful above all things, And desperately wicked; Who can know it?
    3. If doubts assail you, return to the truth of God’s Word. He will never let you down, He will never leave you nor forsake you. Deuteronomy 31.8 And the LORD, he it is that doth go before thee; he will be with thee, he will not fail thee, neither forsake thee: fear not, neither be dismayed.
  2. Don’t beat yourself up.
    1. Don’t pick it back up. If God removed your sin as far as the east is from the west, you have no business going after it. King David knew how to sin. He also knew how to access and live in the peace that God offered him through forgiveness.
      1. Psalm 103.8-16: The LORD is merciful and gracious, slow to anger, and plenteous in mercy.

He will not always chide: neither will he keep his anger for ever.

He hath not dealt with us after our sins; nor rewarded us according to our iniquities.

For as the heaven is high above the earth, so great is his mercy toward them that fear him.

As far as the east is from the west, so far hath he removed our transgressions from us.

Like as a father pitieth his children, so the LORD pitieth them that fear him.

For he knoweth our frame; he remembereth that we are dust.

As for man, his days are as grass: as a flower of the field, so he flourisheth.

For the wind passeth over it, and it is gone; and the place thereof shall know it no more.

(See also Psalm 51.)

2.Do you mourn over your sin? Absolutely! We have regrets. Mourning over consequences of our sin is not the same as continuing to live in it. When we sin, something died. We grieve. Mourning washes over us, strongly at first. But we do not live in mourning for a lifetime. Psalm 30.5, 11, 12 For his anger endureth but a moment; in his favour is life: weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning. …Thou hast turned for me my mourning into dancing: thou hast put off my sackcloth, and girded me with gladness; To the end that my glory may sing praise to thee, and not be silent. O LORD my God, I will give thanks unto thee for ever.

3. Do you need to make restitution? If you have stolen something, pay it back. If you have offended someone, ask for their forgiveness. If you lied, confess the truth. If opportunity to make restitution is passed, and no longer available, make your peace with God. All things occur within His timing.

4. When your sin comes back to haunt you, and this is more than mourning, take it to God. Receive His comfort. Read His Words. 1 John 3.20 For if our heart condemn us, God is greater than our heart, and knoweth all things.

5. Romans 8.15 For you did not receive a spirit of slavery that returns you to fear, but you received the Spirit of sonship, by whom we cry, “Abba! Father!”

6. Psalms 69.32 The humble shall see this, and be glad: and your heart shall live that seek God.

7. If Jesus is Lord of your life, make Him Lord: live and believe like He is your Lord. Embrace His truth and walk in His freedom, peace, and joy.

  1. Don’t let Satan pick on you.
    1. In yourself, you have no power over Satan. He is your enemy, and he seeks to destroy you or weaken you.
    2. God has already defeated Satan. God will always be more powerful than you or Satan.
    3. Claim your position as a child of God.
    4. Call upon God to intervene for you. Let Satan know he has nothing on you.
      1. John 10.10 The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.
      2. Revelation 12.10, 11 And I heard a loud voice saying in heaven, Now is come salvation, and strength, and the kingdom of our God, and the power of his Christ: for the accuser of our brethren is cast down, which accused them before our God day and night. And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony; and they loved not their lives unto the death.
      3. 1 Peter 5.8, 9 Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour: Whom resist stedfast in the faith, knowing that the same afflictions are accomplished in your brethren that are in the world.
  1. Walk in peace, and share God’s peace with the world.
    1. 1 John 5.4, 5 For whatsoever is born of God overcometh the world: and this is the victory that overcometh the world, even our faith. Who is he that overcometh the world, but he that believeth that Jesus is the Son of God?
    2. 1 Corinthians 15.55-58 O death, where is thy sting? O grave, where is thy victory? The sting of death is sin; and the strength of sin is the law. But thanks be to God, which giveth us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ. Therefore, my beloved brethren, be ye stedfast, unmoveable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, forasmuch as ye know that your labour is not in vain in the Lord.
    3. Philippians 1.6 Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ.
    4. Walk in the freedom that God created for you.
      1. John 8.34-36 Jesus answered them, Verily, verily, I say unto you, Whosoever committeth sin is the servant of sin. And the servant abideth not in the house for ever: but the Son abideth ever. If the Son therefore shall make you free, ye shall be free indeed.

If you feel resistance to repentance because you feel you don’t deserve forgiveness, confess that sin right away! That is the sin of unbelief. Go back and read the verses listed above. And there are a whole bunch more promises God made for YOU in the Bible. Read them!

My prayer for you:

Ephesians 3.14-19 ..I bow my knees before the Father, from whom every family in heaven and on earth derives its name. I ask that out of the riches of His glory He may strengthen you with power through His Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. Then you, being rooted and grounded in love, will have power, together with all the saints, to comprehend the length and width and height and depth of His love, and to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.

“I Am Free” on Alethea’s Mind blog

When I read Tosin’s testimony on her freedom in the Lord, I got one of those physical reactions that you get when God is speaking powerfully; when the Holy Spirit within you is connecting, resonating, with His Holy Spirit in a beloved sister.

I will let Tosin speak in her own words here. The link is

A lot has led to this piece below. It’s a journey of many years, but a journey that has now come to an end. This is my testimony, and I am proud to share it unreservedly:

I have been a victim, but I have also played the victim.
I have had low self-esteem, but I have also lowered my esteem.
I have suffered from the words of others, but I have also battered myself with my words.
I have longed for the approval of others but hardly approved of myself.
I have sought for love in all the wrong places but barely loved myself.
I have lived in the fear of rejection when daily I rejected myself.
I have watched others try to dim my light but I’ve never allowed my light to shine.
I have been molested but molest myself daily living in the shadows of my past.

I have belittled myself so you can pity me, I project weakness only to identify with you. When did I believe it was okay to muddy myself in your dirt so I can look like you?

I commend you by portraying a weaker me in comparison to the strength you seem to display, but deep down inside I’m wondering why I just can’t commend your strength and simply walk away.

I have also pretended to walk among the strong while my legs were shivering in weakness, only to keep up appearances, even when no one was really watching. It’s sad the reality of life when one chooses to live for the eyes of me, neglecting the One who truly sees all.

The devil thought he won the battle on my identity, but the Cross is his permanent defeat. All those years of attacking my mind from my childhood up to this point, trying to destroy and pervert all the God made has failed.


I have been free but didn’t accept my freedom to live in the truth of it, but today, everything has changed.

I am free from playing the victim
I am free to live my God-esteem
I am free from the words that caged me
I am free to be who God made me be
I am free from the shadows of my past
I am free to shine His light
I am free from my fears of rejection
I am free to enjoy the greatest love of all
I am free from rolling in the mud of others
I am free to stand strong
I am free to walk forgiven
I am free to forgive

I am OluwaTosin, I am God’s child . . .

“They have greatly oppressed me from my youth,” let Israel say; “they have greatly oppressed me from my youth, but they have not gained the victory over me. Ploughmen have ploughed my back and made their furrows long. But the Lord is righteous; he has cut me free from the cords of the wicked.” Psalm 129:1-4

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The Fool, the Simple, and the Wise


A quick search for ‘the fool’ in my Bible tool quickly turns up 15 verses. There are no verses where God has anything good to say about a fool.

Psalms 14.1, The fool hath said in his heart, There is no God. They are corrupt, they have done abominable works, there is none that doeth good. And exactly the same again in Psalms 53.1, The fool hath said in his heart, There is no God. Corrupt are they, and have done abominable iniquity: there is none that doeth good.

So first, we see that a fool believes there is no God. He makes himself his own god, and that will always lead to his downfall. With himself as god, he is corrupt, he commits abominations, and does no good.

Romans 1.21, 22 Because that, when they knew God, they glorified him not as God, neither were thankful; but became vain in their imaginations, and their foolish heart was darkened. Professing themselves to be wise, they became fools.

There seems to be some difference between a fool and the simple. The fool sets himself up as god; the simple is just stupid, following hither or thither, wherever he is led by another. To be simple is to lack wisdom, to lack understanding: Proverbs 7.7 (I) beheld among the simple ones, I discerned among the youths, a young man void of understanding.

The simple fall into trouble; the fool makes trouble: Proverbs 1.32 For the turning away of the simple shall slay them, and the prosperity of fools shall destroy them. Proverbs 14.15 The simple believeth every word: but the prudent man looketh well to his going.

But the Bible offers hope to the simple: Psalms 119.130 The entrance of thy words giveth light; it giveth understanding unto the simple. Psalms 19.7 The law of the LORD is perfect, converting the soul: the testimony of the LORD is sure, making wise the simple.

Wisdom calls to both the simple and the fool: Proverbs 8.5 O ye simple, understand wisdom: and, ye fools, be ye of an understanding heart.

A personal note: As a retired teacher of the mentally disabled, I will just say that anyone can be stupid. Stupid is not a matter of brain capacity, it is a matter of will and of temperament. Many of my severe/profound mentally impaired students had their wits about them and were productive contributors to our community. Other of my students were stupid, there was no getting around it.

Contrary to the famous quote by the character William Hundert in ‘The Emperor’s Club’ (“Youth ages, immaturity is outgrown, ignorance can be educated, and drunkenness sobered, but stupid lasts forever.”), God’s wisdom can change anyone.

So, we must be careful and consistent in proclaiming God’s wisdom. We do not know the hearts of those whom God has created, and it is not ours to judge as to whether anyone is wise, simple, or foolish. A Jesus noted, Matthew 5.22 But I say unto you, That whosoever is angry with his brother without a cause shall be in danger of the judgment: and whosoever shall say to his brother, Raca, (empty, foolish. o empty one, i.e. thou worthless) shall be in danger of the council: but whosoever shall say, Thou fool, (dull or stupid, i.e. heedless, blockhead, absurd) shall be in danger of hell fire. And as the apostle Paul noted, Romans 1.15 I am obligated both to Greeks and non-Greeks, both to the wise and the foolish.

We serve a great and mighty God, and He can change anyone’s heart: Hebrews 12.11 Now no chastening for the present seemeth to be joyous, but grievous: nevertheless afterward it yieldeth the peaceable fruit of righteousness unto them which are exercised thereby.

Pray to God, and ask Him to search your heart Psalms 139.23 Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts. Pray God to reveal and root out any errant foolish thoughts or simple ways; pray God for His wisdom: James 1.5 If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him.

The antidote to foolishness and simplicity: WISDOM!

Wisdom is a wonderful thing – you NEED wisdom!

Proverbs 4.7 Wisdom is the principal thing; therefore get wisdom: and with all thy getting get understanding.

Proverbs 2.10-12 When wisdom entereth into thine heart, and knowledge is pleasant unto thy soul; Discretion shall preserve thee, understanding shall keep thee: To deliver thee from the way of the evil man, from the man that speaketh froward things.

Ecclesiastes 7.12,19 For wisdom is a defence, and money is a defence: but the excellency of knowledge is, that wisdom giveth life to them that have it…. Wisdom strengtheneth the wise more than ten mighty men which are in the city.

For further reading, I recommend Proverbs, Chapters 8 & 9

Other notes:

Proverbs 12.15 The way of a fool is right in his own eyes: but he that hearkeneth unto counsel is wise.

Proverbs 10:21 The lips of the righteous feed many: but fools die for want of wisdom.

Proverbs 1.32 For the turning away of the simple will slay them, And the complacency of fools will destroy them.

Proverbs 12.1 Whoever loves instruction loves knowledge, But he who hates correction is stupid.

Fool: stupid fellow, dullard, fool, morally bad, despising wisdom and discipline

  • Strong’s Hebrew: 3684. כְּסִיל (kesil), 70 Occurrences translated to English fool or stupid
  • Strong’s Hebrew: 5036. נָבָל (nabal), 18 Occurrences translated to English a fool, or foolish
  • Strong’s Greek: 878. ἄφρων (aphrón), 11 Occurrences translated English fool or foolish
  • Strong’s Greek: 3474. μωρός (móros), 12 Occurrences translated English fool or foolish
  • Strong’s Greek: 877. ἀφροσύνη (aphrosuné) 4 Occurrences translated English as foolishness

Simple: perhaps open-minded, open to wisdom or folly, believing every word, lacking, needing, tendency to bad sense, easily entice or misled

  • Strong’s Hebrew: 6612. פֶּ֫תִי (pthiy), 19 Occurrences translated to English simple or naïve

In Remembrance of Me


Oh, how easily/quickly we forget! We are, indeed, frail children of dust. God designed and created us, and He knows we forget. We not only forget events in our own lives, we forget history, what God has done for us. This is why God, so many, many times throughout Scripture, adjures us to mark events, to write them down, to put up stones of remembrance, to celebrate days of remembrance. He is specific in His blessings to us; He desires that we be specific in our remembrance of His goodness.

I have a hard enough time remembering to bring my tote bags into the grocery store so I don’t have to use plastic bags. Even though I write things on the calendar, I forget to look at the calendar! My mind is growing ever more feeble. May I ever more strongly depend on my Lord to sustain me.

Checklist to remedy the situation:

  1. Read God’s Word daily. God’s Word is manna to us: it feeds us, strengthens us, fortifies us, enlightens us, directs us; and we need it every. single. day.
  2. Keep a journal. Set aside time each day to write down life events, God’s joys, heart songs, heart renderings.
    1. Look back at your writings from time to time. Pray God’s perspective, so you may see how He has been working in your life, and the lives of others.
  3. Keep another journal just for God’s Word. As you read Scripture and pray, write down what the Spirit tells you, personally.
  4. Communicate with family and God’s people. Share your joys and sorrows.
  5. Set times of family celebrations and memorials. When life events happen, make something of them. Look back at your old calendars and journals. Are you memorializing the important things? Are you passing them down to your children?
    1. I am seeing, more and more these days, minimalists (those who do not keep things for the sake of having them, whose homes contain only such items as are necessary for functions of living). I confess to being one of them. I have no interest in keeping objects from the old days, “treasures” my parents have collected, great-grandparents’ china. If you do, that’s okay: we’re all different. I insert this because I’m not talking about passing objects down through the generations, although that may happen. My point is that we make a way of remembering God’s interventions and goodness – some kind of celebration.
  6. Translate God’s memorials into your family / into your life. God instructed the Israelites to commemorate occasions for good purpose. As you read Scripture, be attuned to see if God is directing you in one way or another.
  7. Rejoice in the Lord daily! Find something to give cause for rejoicing. If life is miserable for a while, give thanks for God’s presence and for His ability to gift you with His perspective.

Following are a few passages in Scripture giving instruction to remember:

Exodus 12.14, 15 And this day shall be unto you for a memorial; and ye shall keep it a feast to the LORD throughout your generations; ye shall keep it a feast by an ordinance for ever. Seven days shall ye eat unleavened bread; even the first day ye shall put away leaven out of your houses: for whosoever eateth leavened bread from the first day until the seventh day, that soul shall be cut off from Israel

Exodus 28.12 And thou shalt put the two stones upon the shoulders of the ephod for stones of memorial unto the children of Israel: and Aaron shall bear their names before the LORD upon his two shoulders for a memorial.

Exodus 28.29 And Aaron shall bear the names of the children of Israel in the breastplate of judgment upon his heart, when he goeth in unto the holy place, for a memorial before the LORD continually.

Leviticus 2.16 And the priest shall burn the memorial of it, part of the beaten corn thereof, and part of the oil thereof, with all the frankincense thereof: it is an offering made by fire unto the LORD.

Leviticus 23.24 Speak unto the children of Israel, saying, In the seventh month, in the first day of the month, shall ye have a sabbath, a memorial of blowing of trumpets, an holy convocation.

Leviticus 24.7 And thou shalt put pure frankincense upon each row, that it may be on the bread for a memorial, even an offering made by fire unto the LORD.

Joshua 1.8 This book of the law shall not depart out of thy mouth; but thou shalt meditate therein day and night, that thou mayest observe to do according to all that is written therein: for then thou shalt make thy way prosperous, and then thou shalt have good success.

Joshua 4.5-7 And Joshua said unto them, Pass over before the ark of the LORD your God into the midst of Jordan, and take ye up every man of you a stone upon his shoulder, according unto the number of the tribes of the children of Israel: That this may be a sign among you, that when your children ask their fathers in time to come, saying, What mean ye by these stones? Then ye shall answer them, That the waters of Jordan were cut off before the ark of the covenant of the LORD; when it passed over Jordan, the waters of Jordan were cut off: and these stones shall be for a memorial unto the children of Israel for ever.

Malachi 3.16 Then they that feared the LORD spake often one to another: and the LORD hearkened, and heard it, and a book of remembrance was written before him for them that feared the LORD, and that thought upon his name

Luke 22.19 And he took bread, and gave thanks, and brake it, and gave unto them, saying, This is my body which is given for you: this do in remembrance of me.

John 14.26 But the Comforter, which is the Holy Ghost, whom the Father will send in my name, he shall teach you all things, and bring all things to your remembrance, whatsoever I have said unto you.

1 Cor 11.23-26 For I have received of the Lord that which also I delivered unto you, That the Lord Jesus the same night in which he was betrayed took bread: And when he had given thanks, he brake it, and said, Take, eat: this is my body, which is broken for you: this do in remembrance of me. After the same manner also he took the cup, when he had supped, saying, This cup is the new testament in my blood: this do ye, as oft as ye drink it, in remembrance of me. For as often as ye eat this bread, and drink this cup, ye do shew the Lord’s death till he come.

Preserve Me from Me


In my devotions today, I read from passages in Jeremiah 10 and Psalms 121. These verses jumped out at me:

Jeremiah 10.23, 24 O LORD, I know that the way of man is not in himself: it is not in man that walketh to direct his steps. O LORD, correct me, but with judgment; not in thine anger, lest thou bring me to nothing.

Psalms 121.7, 8 The LORD shall preserve thee from all evil: he shall preserve thy soul. The LORD shall preserve thy going out and thy coming in from this time forth, and even for evermore.

These verses tell me that I am not to depend on my own discernment or judgement: my way is not in myself, it is not in me to direct my own steps. Jeremiah reminds me that, when I do so, I will fall into sin. When that happens, I must cry out to God Almighty to correct me, but with judgment, not in His anger.

God promises, in Psalms 121, to preserve me from all evil – He will preserve my soul, He will preserve my going out and my coming in. Even when I depend on myself, even when I forget (or decide not) to follow Him, He will preserve my soul, evermore because I am His.

So I know I can rest in Him. I don’t want to become complacent in Him – Heaven forbid. But I may do my best to know Him and to obey Him, and therein lies my peace, my joy, my rest.

I like peace and joy and rest a lot. I am glad and blessed that my Lord offers me these gifts, just for the taking.